Do I stay or do I go?

A question I have been getting a lot lately is, are you staying or are you going, and if you go will you be coming back?

My answer is…. I don’t know.

I committed to two cycles, basically 6 months, when I came here.  We have just started the second cycle.  At the end of this cycle things slow down a bit and then ramp up for September.  So people are wondering what my plans are.

I don’t have any.

The problem I am having in deciding what to do is, there is nothing keeping me here, but there is nothing that makes me want to leave either. 

I am comfortable. 

Not overly happy, but not unhappy either.

I like my new apartment..safe, clean, comfortable…. I like most of my classes, the students that show up, want to learn, and I am finding I am not a bad teacher.  Except for the low pay, the job is OK.

The weather is fine.  Cool at nights, warm during the day…. not too cold or too hot.

I think what I am missing is passion.  I can’t sail….it is the middle of the mountains…. I can’t dance…. there are no salsa studios or clubs….

I don’t photograph much.  My “big” cameras are heavy to carry around, and I do have a fear of losing them.  I wish I had a “smaller” camera, but my g9 died 2 days before I left Canada, and replacing it here would be very expensive, and the inexpensive cameras they have here ( low end sonys) would drive me crazy. 

I have tried to put together a couple of things to get me photographing again, but so far they have not panned out.

So I don’t know what to do… the easist decision is not to decide.